....or at least I pretended to be. It lasted all of a couple of years, between age 15 & 17, when I did a fanzine, hung out with bands & generally felt 'accepted' & like I belonged.
Over the years I've taken up with groups of people - Bowie fans, Darkness fans, Russell Brand fans, local music scene, local pub, etc - to varying degrees of success. While making some long-lasting friendships along the way, I still struggle to feel a true sense of belonging or acceptance.
Due to marrying late &, thus far, having no children I feel out of step with many of my peers yet don't feel linked to those who have not reached those life steps as I'm not out & about living without a care.
Equally, having always wanted to be a parent I've not strived for a career to speak of so the fear of not becoming a parent leaves me worried I'll not fit in anywhere.
Maybe I'm just destined to be socially awkward & inept. Not to 'belong'. Not to fit in anywhere.
Maybe I've just failed at life somehow.
Til Next Time,
Me.
