Perils Of The Heart...

Dear Stranger, Finding my way forward is tough. No one warns you how difficult emotions can be. After my husband died there was a brief 'thing' with another guy. It all went wrong for various reasons but it never felt like the wrong thing..just the wrong time. He went back to his toxic ex & I went back to being a widow & we stopped speaking (her insistance rather than any fall out between us) A couple of months back they split up. He's just started seeing someone else who, fortunately, I get on with so now we can be friends again. I saw him for the first time in a long time last night. The new girlfriend is on holiday but knew we were meeting up (along with a bigger group of friends) & she was fine with it. While nothing happened there was a fleeting moment where something almost did. We can blame the booze, but I know that spark is still there. I'd never act on it but it just makes me sad that the timing is just never right. That said I've been trying to move on from that too. The first guy who caught my eye turned out to have a lovely girlfriend (that said, there are sparks there too...but not even going to think about it). The other guy is a work colleague but he became my boss a few months back (after working together 6 years) so I can't go there either (plus I don't think he's interested anyway). So this all leaves me with a load of emotions that have nowhere to go & being on my own. Why can't it all be simpler? Til Next Time, Me